rant.

There have been a lot of articles condemning the Delhi rape case. I decided not to share any of them cause I feel cheap in doing nothing but sitting in front of a fucking computer and sharing, but some were really good and valid and I shared them anyway. Of course I'm furious but so is everyone else. Yes I feel like shouting madarchod, bhenchod and visualise myself heroically murdering those bastards. It's not helping. Murdering fucking everyone of these people in the most gruesome fashion. It's still not helping. This is the first time I'm willing to condone brutal capital punishment and it's shocking me and scaring me. I have always been against it. What is happening? But in my heart I know that's going to start another set of problems - but maybe it should happen, society has historically adjusted itself through anarchy whenever this happens. To the master of puppets it's just another shiver in the strings. Yes, I'm really angry and I'm no one. It's scary beyond wits to even imagine what it must be like to be that family - to be that person, that brother, that parent, that boyfriend. I fail, I can't.

So what do I do. Ok to begin with, I'll rant about or rather espouse some basic philosophy points I have constantly mentioned. Why does someone do this and what is the source? Are we basically savage animals and it shows up in heinous crimes like these. Sure, we are horrible savage animals that will succumb to cannibalism but that's an over-simplistic view. How can someone even like forced sex? There is no way on earth it can be pleasant. What is wrong with these people. But then I will continue to blame ourselves as a society not because that is the easiest thing to do, but because that is where the problem starts with.

You make a society that practises female infanticide. What were you thinking and what were you expecting? You start murdering these girls before they were even born. You not only screw up the sex ratio but you send out the wrong message. Do you realise how you are affecting the world with female infanticide? What if there was only one woman with for every three men in the world/country? What do you think would happen. Would it affect or worsen these crimes? Of course even if there was one lone woman in the world, not one person should dare touch her without consent, but we know the dark side is going to show itself. What is the message you are sending out? You have sent her packing even before she was born. You have already made her inferior. You have already destroyed the beginning. If that was the attitude before birth, same is going to be the attitude after birth. You will bring up the guy telling him he has to take care of the business and you will bring up the girl telling her that she has to get married off somewhere. You bring up the kid that way for 20 years. What do you think is going to happen to them? Do you really think the girl will have confidence and ambition left. You make your women cook and serve your men the food. They then have their meals after the husbands are done. Are they your motherfucking servants, you pieces of shit. You have your get-togethers, you drink and merry yourselves. Then you leave some cola for the women. They have to serve you and wait on you and get refill your peanuts every half hour. You will not allow her to face the world and then make fun of her for not knowing it. You seclude that person from the outside world - then you ill treat her and show her a morsel of pity at your passing fancy. You are disgusting enough to make her crave for that too. You are breeding social and psychological pain and monsters beyond your imagination and one day it is my sincere hope that it wakes up and destroys you.

The problem is not with some set of rascals who can't control themselves. They aren't patients, they are pests that need to be dealt with and dealt with harsh. But the problem is how we treat women. The problem is how we see them, and the biggest problem is how we are forced to see them. How many schools do you have that are coeducational and foster healthy coupling of both the sexes. Most of your bloody schools are single gender. You cut them off and separate them from childhood. You frown upon all the communication they do. Yes you make it so fucking taboo that even the most simple (i won't fucking call it innocent, cos that's the wrong word to use and perpetrated by this delusion that you have created) communication is treated with unnecessary and inadequate jokes and attention. Forget communication, the most human essence of touch is considered wrong. How wrong is it to fucking touch a person. How do you sense a person? over the fucking internet on Facebook. It's biologically done (apart from communication) by visual communication, our reaction to auditory perception, our sense of touch. All these things contribute to how we perceive any human being. You burkha bondage bastards have destroyed the very essence of human kind, the very essence of a living being. To communicate between two people, just two people. You have killed at the very core the simple spontaneity that we shared when we were unaware kids. You have made taboo and disgusting the most natural and holy (if that fucking cuss word was ever going to be used) aspects of human bonding. You have fettered it with fear and suspicion. I know of colleges in India where boys and girls - kids! - aren't allowed to talk to each other and are fined. Obviously you'll have eve teasing, stupid vulgar gestures these men commit to grab the attention of women, and then worse the anger and frustration at their failure to do so. It's a reverse effect - men act like donkeys, women get protective of themselves and treat every one with fear and suspicion - they become snobbish. You start a bloody spiral and spoil human bonding for everyone. You ever know why they are snobbish probably cos on the way to the cafeteria through the day, she was glared at 5-10 times, maybe whistled at, maybe pushed or inappropriately touched in buses and trams, and that's why she's pissed. And you know why she feels so helpless, cos she can't fucking tell anyone about it. It's embarrassing, she can't complaint to her senior managers, when employees mistreat her. Often it's the fucking boss himself. But then how does she rattle cages. If she complaints, she's going to be declared a slut - and since she is more easily expendable, she's going to have to "change departments" while the boss is important to the business. And of course you know "she was a little like that only, dressing like that". Who the fuck are you to tell what she should dress like haan? Do you bleeding imbeciles every notice why dressing is important to them? Why it's an important part of their persona? How it's linked to how they perceive and relate to the world. Have you ever seen them move properly when they are happy and realised that the dressing, the movement, the head shakes are all part of them. They are all part of their beauty and their existence and they are not only for men's pleasure. They would like dressing even if we men weren't there to ogle at them. All part of what makes them unique. And you have killed that too. You have made a disgusting world. You have made a world for them where they are valued and judged only by their looks. Of course how else do fucking arrange marriages happen anyway, the girl should be pretty na. The girl should be pretty and the guy should be rich. That's your fucking barometer. Every where the only way they are judged is by their looks. Granted we all as human beings are attracted to people in certain ways and this affects our behaviour, it even happens between men and men and women and women. But no you have objectified her to the point of insanity. There has to be her perfect figure, she has been treated across literature, art and all forms as an object. Of course that crass crap doesn't merit being called art or literature, but hey aren't these the times that we live in.

And then how can we forget sati. The most noblest of indian traditions - the example we use to tell the world we are a great country with such pride and aplomb never used to congratulate your women's hockey or cricket team of course. Fortunately we had the british rule us (I say this to make a point, it was obviously most unfortunate) and they taught people like Raja Ram Mohan Roy to teach us to not burn our women alive. Someone, someone smart told me it originated as a practise because Mughal emperors after war would rape the women after winning a war. Well probably it did, but it took a long time after the Mughals to change that, didn't it. And what does that tell you - they preferred to be burnt alive than to get violated and raped! And we still hold these fortresses as our monuments of honour. We in India have palaces and forts (the ones I saw were in rajasthan) where the high gates of the fortress are marked with a series of hand impressions. These are the impressions of the women who put it there before being burnt on their husbands funeral pyre. Of course these are our signs of greatness, the kings the dynasties that we hold on to. These are the buildings that we are proud. Raze them to the ground, they have nothing to teach you and if they did you wouldn't learn them anyway.

So what next. You treat them pathetically at every age, in every relationship at every place. What about sexuality? How often does the husband reciprocate and partake in what the woman wants? How often is she allowed to be expressive. You just want your blow jobs don't you. Did you ever bother with what she wants, what pleasures her. Did you even fucking clean that cum off the bedspread after ejaculating. No, why will you, she's your fucking maid servant. She is supposed to be submissive and she will do that. I'm sorry if that was a little too disturbing for your ears. Why do you think this happens then? Have you heard stories of women being tortured? How men stick iron rods and throw chilli powder into their vaginas. How India is a fantastic country, the golden bird of the east, in fact the fucking great country that has spent twenty years fighting for a seat in the UN but not the fact that it has the highest child molestation in the world. But of course, this is both young boys and girls - I'm guessing girls here have it far worse. My friend is a psychologist who has treated children whose dad used to rape them and they used to cover themselves in their own shit to prevent that from happening. What drives this sort of behaviour? Are you as a fucking society a culprit of this for having fostered an environment where men are called alphas, praised for that and women are hidden behind shut doors. Or is it that these people are bastards despite their upbringing and we in India and Delhi especially seem to be way to full of that. If you still feel proud of being an Indian, I feel sad for you. I feel disgusted and repulsed. Don't give me your shambolic reasons of how we used to be a great and open society in Harappan and Gupta times. I have grown in these times and seen this foul shit and I don't think that I can have any shred of respect for a country and that doesn't agree on language, religion, cast - nothing at all and fights over them - but unanimously molests and rapes women. That and commercial bollywood which is a rape of aesthetics and story telling are probably the only two things we as a country agree on. And of course we like our bollywood - we've got all the conventional saas bahus, the epic drama of indian life and the item numbers working for us. If that mass cultural delusion isn't example enough, what is.

And all you fucking feminists and well-bred women, if you raise your voice at how appalling and stereotypical what I have said is, you can go fuck yourself to. You don't understand the plight of these women any better than men and just need social recognition. Even if your intentions are noble, your attempts will be pale. And you women aren't bereft of these crimes as well. How the fuck can you let us treat you like this? You should have slaughtered us and murdered us long back. You not only commit a crime against yourself and humanity by letting us treat you this way, but you also treat your daughter-in-laws the same way. You pamper and spoil your sons the same way. You fucking don't give your girls enough freedom the same way. So fuck you too. You might be the product of a social disaster but you are fostering it as well. The next time your drunk husband manhandles you, please file a report with some NGO (not the cops, god knows they might rape you and call you loose for talking to another man) or better cut his testicles when he is sleeping.

Quite frankly if these are the times we have to live in, we don't deserve you. You are the only people that make this shit world even the tiny bit beautiful or worth living in. For every fucking bomb that we have dropped, you have been enchanted by the essence of flowers and decorated our small houses with them. Quite frankly you have civilised us and taught us dirty beasts how to live. But we don't deserve you and neither does this world. Actually maybe nature does but we don't. Also, if someone blames me for stereotyping women here I'm gonna burn you piece of shit as well. I know very well they are more than that and can perform at any rate men can.