Self Implicit censorship.

It's been a while since I did this and today's impetus has been has been a sudden realization that we censor ourselves implicitly. I mean to say that even though I believe in complete freedom of speech and expression and am completely anti-censorship, I implicitly do censor myself to be, let's say nice. Now there are two aspects to it, one the censorship and the other the inherent nature of a person to be more blatant, blunt, bold whatever about his thoughts are or to be more courteous and people pleasing. The negative feel of the latter is not owing to a prejudice but my dislike of the problem that ails me, and quite a few of us. Now that said, again this shade of the character too shows itself in certain regard and in a different context, one could be quite the opposite.

But then again, coming back to the previous point I was making, our development to a certain extent dictates how we deal with this implicit censorship. Why this hesitancy at times? This does not affect us when we are speaking out, as it were, maybe in a blog like this or in a general discussion. When I noticed this, or when I guess this does show up is when the discussion is outside our real comfort zone. When we are not speaking to friends, but to maybe family members we don't really like, or professional contacts in general. To investigate the issue further, another reason for this might be the fact that the mind is working in a horrendous loop to be politically correct and yet try and get a diplomatic stand-point. But it is good to just be plain blank about these discussions. And being of the (lets call it the disturbed) folk myself, this sucks when you censor yourself without realizing it and regret it post a discussion. Some of it, I believe has to do with our culture, which is very tightly wound about what to say and how to say.

All in all, it is a lag we have to overcome. Signing off on an abrupt note.